Ugh when it rains it pours...

i was just complaining to one of my best friends how it seems like the start of my year has just been nothing but a pain. well i would think that a new year would be awesome right? new goodies, new stuff to explore, new beginings, it's a new year!?! yeah well apparently god wants to throw more at us then i think we can handle. if it's not the kids being sick or something with a car it's losing a job that we relied on a job we were not ready to lose just yet. we wanted to eventually quit anyways but it hurt us. at least it happened now and not later. the one good thing is we'll have some tax money that we can play with for a month or so but we'll have to get on the ball to find a job because we can't aford to have him out of work too long... we're already strapped enough as is right now and to lose this just sucks. i have a feeling the two trips i've been looking forward too all year are going to have to wait till 2012. i didnt want that. i wanted to go see my friends in iowa this year. i have been looking forward to that trip since the day i started planning it but i can't aford it if we're not going to have a job to help pay for gas and stuff and i wanted to go to colorado for christmas this year and i think that will be out as well, at least for this year anyways. our aniversary date is off but i am not however canceling my massage. it's probably my last massage i'm going to get for a while. :| i am going to go stock our fridge/freezer/cabinets this week. i will not let kirt refuse me of that. we need those groceries and apparently now more then ever. if worse comes to worse we will go get on foodstamps if need be but i really dont wanna get that. we are supossed to get a full pay check plus vacation hours plus a severence pay of some type but i dont know what that will be... we will be getting our taxes i guess monday since they didnt post friday and i guess that instead of putting money aside for our trips like i wanted too i guess it will go into other things... :| i am not sure how the next few months will pan out. i think i'm going to start walking dogs in the afternoon around here maybe since it's starting to become really nice outside besides it would give me the excercise i would need 10-20$ a dog could add up quick... ? i think i could handle that. i told kirt that i refuse to give up my internet though. i will give up cable tv, i will give up my DVR, i will give up cable tv for the bedrooms but i will not give up my internet... he didnt like that but i can watch all of the shows that we dont get to see on hulu or something and if anything i at least want to do something like that. i would miss the shows we do watch. i am downgrading my insurance on my car. i have full coverage i am going to liability only which sucks because i know i dont wanna do that but i dont have much of a choice. it's a cut that we can aford to take i guess i just dont want too. we can always add it back on down the road especially since we own both cars outright. i will not be buying a car anytime soon either i guess and well my trips to the school i think will be limited in the car now that it's warming up outside. kirt will be at the pawn shop a few more days i hope maybe eventually full time. that would be what we really need right now even if it only ends up being 30,000 a year... something would be better then nothing. i doubt that we'll be able to get on full time with the pawn shop though. in the mean time i guess keep us in your thoughts and prayers. this is going to be a long road back to where we are. we took a huge hit. at least they're not being jerks about it...